How I Would Finally See Them Disappear (O Courage – My King, My Fist!).
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How I Would Finally See Them Disappear (O Courage – My King, My Fist!)
Posted by Kyle on August 10, 2011 in Random rantings
Tags: authoritarian Malaysia, civil rights Malaysia, fate, goonting, Kyle Goonting, love Malaysia, prince soil, revolution, rights, wake up Malaysia
How I Would Finally See Them Disappear (O Courage – My King, My Fist!)
There I was,
lying so quietly
still,
in the stifling confines
of my lived space.
When the urge to scream,
Forced
Itself upon me.
I was frightened,
for reasons I could find no way
of knowing.
O why, should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
I could not,
from any one corner of my powerless frame,
see the vindication
for it
Since there seemed nothing for me to be frightened of.
So I remained,
just as I knew I should,
so quietly still,
when I felt myself scream…
Only to hear its echo
Within the bloody walls
and the inner most depths
of my heart.
And there I was,
closing my eyes
as tightly and cowardly
as I only could.
O why, O why should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
And upon having to
open them once again,
I began to see the walls
Around me
slowly and in such manners so painfully quiet
Fade their colours away.
And there and then again,
I was struck
with the urge to scream.
But just like before,
my voice could not find its way out
of my bloody ticker.
And as the walls
Around me
Continued to submit itself
to such revolting expels,
I realized to my horror
that it was beginning to bear
The ugliest of transparencies.
There I was,
my heart beginning to burn.
With every scream…
struggling, straining and stinging,
I felt its sore…
More, more and more.
And at every ounce of blood
that my heart would
pump, pump and pump,
I would feel it burn even more.
And my poor, quiet soul,
would scream even louder.
And my poor heart,
would sting and burn,
would sting and burn,
More, more and more and more…
O why? O why? Should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
Yet there I STILL was,
with that splitting pain one would feel
If only a needle should
Force itself
To pierce right through,
So slowly and quietly,
an open and most bloody of wounds.
O why? O why…
I felt the pleadings
Within me.
But as I had feared,
the colours of the wall
Faded completely…
There I was,
in my lived space,
Within those four walls,
no,
Within glass walls
with silver linings
Around
each of their borders –
How ugly and clear
How cold and captivating.
My heart began to pump
even harder and louder.
Then there I saw,
in the distance,
Faces that glowed
With such incomprehensible life…
With the most blindingly radiant of
Eyes,
With the most painfully striking of
Smiles –
The most beautiful of Princes and Princesses…
Gliding toward the glass walls
Around me.
Their gaze were fixated
on me.
Like sewing threads
Tightening my lips;
Like plaster and clay
Covering my eyes;
Like the blood that
Nailed my feet
To this soil;
Like the nails that had
Pinned my soul
To this coffin.
At that,
the thought of all my ‘sins’,
Forced
Itself upon me.
Those stubborn desires
of mine,
the perverse thoughts
of the mind,
and those most savagely willful indulgings.
O why? O why? Should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
My heart began to pump
More, more and more,
Louder and harder
than ever before…
So loud,
that I could hear it in my ears,
So hard,
that I could feel it in my throat.
O how terribly sorry I was made to feel…
O Why should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
There I was,
as the urge to be punished
Forced
Itself upon me…
To punish me
for all those ‘sins’…
To plaster my mouth,
that I may speak no more;
To put needles through my eyes,
that I may see no more.
O why? O why? Could I have not allowed myself to put a needle through my eyes?
For what use were they then?
When they be captivated
Only by the most painful of sights…
When they should see only these
Glass walls
Around me
and those beautifully cruel
Princes and Princesses.
As they inched close-r and close-r…
with Their eyes
sharper than the sharpest of needles…
I could see Them
Watching me,
More and more;
I could hear Them
Listening more and more
to my heart’s violent screams.
And there and then,
My heart did scream
Louder than before…
No,
Louder than ever before.
I could feel the needle
Touching the very surface
of that open wound.
They reached out
Their hands,
and placed Their pointers against Their lips…
O why? O why? Should I have allowed myself to be so frightened?
And still there I was,
as They then reached out
Their hands
Toward the glass walls.
I could see –
O how painful it was!
Their ears closing in…
I could hear –
O how violent it was!
Their eyes drawing near…
As Their hands moved to border on the surface
of that cold, ugly and captivating
Glass.
And then
I thought…
about that needle.
Yes, all of a sudden,
I thought…
I thought about…
My eyes, my mouth and my ears.
And then,
right then,
there occurred a most peculiar incident,
at the very time
I recaptured
The forgotten act of thought.
What was so peculiar…
but, I think, less unfamiliar,
was that before my heart was to be punctured,
that is,
the split second between
Their hands touching the surface
of the glass,
and the needle inside penetrating
that of my heart…
I saw
In my eyes,
I heard
In my ears,
I felt
In my mouth,
For the first time in my living…
The most unpleasantly uncomfortable of all silences.
And
I thought…
Yes, I…
Thought,
in the loudest of voices –
Piercing, splitting and stabbing –
“O why? O why? Should I allow myself to be so afraid?”
And at that,
I
Stood up,
For the first time in my
Life.
I
Reached out my
Hand
and
I
Clenched it.
I
Raised it up
to punch and puncture the stale and stifling air
as
I
Exclaimed,
at the top of my
Voice…
when
Pump… Pump… Pump…
“Freedom! Freedom! Freedom!”
Posted by Kyle on August 10, 2011 in Random rantings
Tags: authoritarian Malaysia, Bumiputera, freedom, ismail xavier, issues Malaysia, Malaysia, national allegory, prince soil, revolution, rights Malaysia, suppression Malaysia, surveillance Malaysia, voices of suppressed
The Untold Tale of A Greatest Man
He lay there.
Just there,
Staring at the morning sky.
The sun hidden from his face,
The air breathing across his nose,
The whispers from a busy street kissing his open lips.
His eyes, closed.
He lay there,
With his back to the earth,
His face hidden from the world,
The stench of the busy streets teasing his nostrils,
The noisy footsteps trampling over his lips.
His eyes, still, closed.
He was a ‘lonesome’ man,
They would think,
A ‘thinker’, they would guess.
“A mysterious man” he must have been,
“With his long hair and thick grey beard”.
But no,
No one looked,
No one would.
The blind whisperings of their thoughts,
Confined to only roam these streets,
Could not find their way to him.
He must have been that suspicious type,
Not to be told of, and not spoken with…
Hiding behind his thick beard and long grey hair.
“No, a ‘people’s man’ he once said,
A ‘speaker’ he once thought” –
A mysterious other could say of him.
But no,
No one spoke,
No one would.
Their noisy footsteps so deafening,
Were left to only roam these streets,
To only trample, so harsh and so cruel.
While the mysterious other,
Now with quite possibly short hair and a clean shave,
Lay quiet in hiding.
He was one who knew too much perhaps?
But no shots were heard, no one would hear.
A government agent, killed on duty.
But no stabs on his back? No one would see.
A cast-away, A polymath, A millionaire, A sociopath –
Who would know?
No, who could know?
Behind that thick beard and long hair,
He quite possibly was an astronaut,
Intoxicated by the stench in the air.
Or perhaps a revolutionary,
Not to be told of, and not spoken with.
But no, quite possibly not –
His lips are open.
He lied there last night,
To stare at the night sky,
And the stars looked down on his face.
The garbage lined up,
Oblivious of his presence,
And waited for their morning pick-up.
While the quiet streets listened…
Listened, as they only then could,
Till his final breath.
The one that whispered softly,
and kindly,
To a comfortably deserted world.
He could have been the greatest man,
His lips left an open smile.
If only they listened,
If only they’d look.
Then perhaps yes,
He would look quite possibly like the greatest man.
Now, there he lay,
Under the morning sky.
The sun hiding from his face,
The garbage still in wait…
Its noise harsh,
and cruel.
The busy streets, still ignorant of his existence,
Looked to be the greatest man –
A secret agent, a millionaire, an intellectual, an astronaut…
Its stench intoxicating.
They never listened, they never cared.
And now his lips are a quiet smile.
They never looked, they could never have.
And now,
His eyes are closed.
Posted by Kyle on March 10, 2011 in Scripts and Stories
Tags: freedom, garbage, goonting, greatest man, human, kyle, new world, revolution, rights, script, silenced revolutionary, speech, story, tale, untold